7AM) I’ve stayed up all night
, on purpose – not just in my usual wandering from fun thing to fun thing
manner – but in order to sleep today away. Tomorrow I have to have a colonoscopy
and a esophagastroduodenoscopy
, yuk! That means today I can’t eat anything but clear liquid
s and must endure chemically induced diarrhea. I’ve seen others go through this, the preparation is definitely worse than the procedure. So, I thought I’d sleep between bathroom runs. I hope I can.
Or, maybe I’ll finish up 7 already half done node
s and make level 5. That would put a bright edge on today! But perhaps that would be too much like noding while drunk
I promise no more day logs
until after level 5 is achieved but I don’t promise not to add more nonsense
to this one.
Maybe I’ll just get on my exercise bike
until I drop from exhaustion or lift my weight
s, or turn my compost pile
……I certainly won’t be reading any books
. I’m already tired, as evidenced by the rambling I’m doing here. I don’t want to go to sleep
yet. I still have 25.5 miserable hours to kill.
DH just left for his usual Monday morning commute
. He won’t be back until Friday. I can behave weirdly with no observers. My friend will drive me to and fro tomorrow. Thank you friend Becky.
is just a node shell
and exercise bike
don't even exist, guess I'll fix that.
12:30PM) I forgot I had to go get my blood drawn
so I did that then wandered around Kmart looking for bargains. $150 later I'm carting home 4 new trash cans, 4 new pillows and new socks for everyone. These are things we really did need but I can't help feeling I'm making stupid choices right now. Put that credit card away girl
! I seem to have caught a second wind. Got the trash to the street for tomorrow's pickup and fed the birds. I had to break through the ice in the birdbath for them. I've become very spoiled by the mild winter but today it is cold.
Stopped at Starbucks
for a hot caramel cider
/no cream, it is really just steamed apple juice with caramel syrup but it is surprisingly satisfying. Just made myself another one at home. I have an expresso
/ steam machine that I make myself a caramel latte
with every day but no milk product
s are allowed today. Only 20 hours left to go. The garden
is out, too cold today so I think I'll node
Just nodded off about 20 times, I think I'll cave in now and go to bed. Oh lord, the hospital
just called and they want to videotape my breastfeeding class next week. I HATE being videotaped when I'm teaching. Oh well, maybe it will inspire me instead of inhibiting me but I doubt it. I could normally teach that class in my sleep and I'll probably stutter and uh,uh, uh ... the whole time. Well, off to bed.
, good night cow jumping over the moon, good night bears and good night chairs ....."
4PM)Up for the first dose of phospho-soda
("ginger-lemon flavor"). That is some deeesgusting stuff. It literally gave me chills. I'm now thankful for jello chaser
s and chemical chicken broth.
10PM) 2nd dose even worse going down and induced moderate nausea for about 15" afterwards. Chicken broth is the best liquid for immediate chaser, followed by jello and Celestial Seasonings
Vanilla Chamomile tea
At least the steady trips to the bathroom are not painful like when you have the flu
, just frequent.
It is now the next day (3/5/02) but I’m keeping it here on (3/4/02) because I recognize this node is frightfully self indulgent
and doesn’t deserve to become a 2nd node as well.
12MN to 4AM) slept steady / 5AM to 8AM) showered and a bit more fitful sleep
8AM to 10AM) Becky drove me to hospital, I checked in and the nurse got the IV
in my R hand (very easy, she used a little bleb of Novocain
and it didn't hurt at all plus Becky brought me a "bed buddy
" - a little tube of microwavable materials - to keep my hands warm and veins dilated).
Becky and I “job share
” so she went off to see our patients and I went into a Versed induced haze
. I felt nothing of the colonoscopy and was only aware of them spraying my throat to numb it for the esophagastroduodenoscopy
then I was out of it again. Waking up was much easier than from general anesthesia.
1PM)I’m just a little woozy but out to lunch at La Madeleine
. Yum, mushroom soup and chicken salad sandwich on olive bread sure beats yesterday's fare.
For the rest of the day I slept a lot, my son took me to TGIF
s dinner, and I steadily woke up. By 9PM I'm all back to normal.
I don’t understand what they found, they took some esophagus
biopsies, so I’ll talk to the doctor tomorrow. I think it was just routine to do the biopsies
. I’ve had a long history of gastroesophogeal reflux
and they worry about the effect of that and the possibility of cancer
but I didn’t get the impression it looked like cancer
, just that biopsies are routine. The rectal bleeding source was just a fissure
, which is healing on its own. That sudden bleeding was the reason for the whole procedure so that was quite a relief.