Some unspecified threat hanging in the air. Sense of dread. Something about extremely toxic spiders
or other jumping, biting insects. Someone (it seems at the time it is me) is attacked in a stairwell and goes to be evaluated. But then I am digging holes around our house, preparing to plant bulbs
, and S. (my partner of 16 years) is with a nurse
— the nurse seems to be one of our pediatrician
s' nurses, as it happens, though the clinic
seems to be across the street from our house.
I am told (because maybe at this point I am dreaming from S's POV?) or perhaps I walk in just at the moment to hear the nurse saying something about the diagnosis, and the effects of the medicine she is giving to S., particularly about how it will cloud her vision. It's not clear whether her vision will improve with time or whether this is some permanent side-effect of what the nurse is calling an infection, related to some sort of foreign matter that the "spiders" injected into her eyes during the attack.
Before I/we can ask further questions I awoke in a panic, wondering how we would make ends meet, if S. were no longer able to work as a radiologist, due to the impairment of her vision.
Backstepping, there is an atmosphere that pervades this dream of a sort of humming threat. Dark stairwells, dim rooms, overcast skies for the most part, at least up to and including the examination room. Maybe this is the blurring of vision the nurse is talking about?
The girls are also there, somewhere, though no specific image remains. Someone, an older man, is standing in the flower beds, telling me things about tulips. Though it feels like fall, I am given to understand that spring has come (though then why am I planting bulbs?)... the man seems to suggest that spring has somehow failed to arrive in the right way and most bulbs have failed to come up this year, except for a few very flashy tulips, which is strange, since these are usually eaten by the deer.
There is a background of prior dreams that I'm not recalling that somehow bolster the sense of unease that pervades the parts I do recall.