Well today was a day of emotional battery. I don't know if it's just the way things are intended to be or if some monumental screw up on my behalf caused it.

Two people I care about more than anything or everything2 have been totally bashing the crap out of me today. I'm pretty sure its not intentional but it still hurts.

Its gotten to the point that I don't know what to do. I'm trying my hardest but they don't seem to care about me. If I say something its met with immediate disgust and automatically rejected. All my thoughts, actions and ideas are crushed. Its hard to maintain hope in a situation like this. As of right now i'm faced with the prospect of living alone in all aspects of the word. I don't wish to control anyone but it's hard to live in a world between love and hate and alot easier to live on either end. As it stands the love end is in a questionable state and in desperate need of help but I don't believe it can be repared.