Well today was a day of emotional battery
. I don't know if it's just the way things are intended to be or if some monumental screw up
on my behalf caused it.
Two people I care about more than anything
or everything2 have been totally bashing
the crap out of me today. I'm pretty sure its not intentional
but it still hurts.
Its gotten to the point that I don't know what to do. I'm trying my hardest but they don't seem to care about me. If I say something its met with immediate disgust
and automatically rejected
. All my thoughts
. Its hard to maintain hope
in a situation like this. As of right now i'm faced with the prospect of living alone
in all aspects of the word. I don't wish to control anyone but it's hard to live in a world between love and hate
and alot easier to live on either end. As it stands the love end is in a questionable state and in desperate need of help but I don't believe it can be repared.