I know that when I write positive touchy-feely "my life is beautiful" kind of day-log writeups I tend to get upvoted, and when I write about what a pisser my day has been I tend to get none.

But who fucking cares.

Tonight just sucks.

It started out great -- a nice BBQ with lots of friends, watched the game, Lakers won. And then they all left and the crap began.

Of course it is all insignificant. But it does not matter what the petty issue is ... its the underlying meaning and feelings that eat away at my brain. Its the way I feel insignificant, I feel under attack, I feel like I need to change my life around so I won't have to feel this way anymore.

At least not because of him.