2:52am. Just can't sleep. Sometimes I find myself staring at the computer screen, not really seeing it, for long periods of time on end, waiting...

I should be used to this feeling by now. I'm sure a lot of people should be. It's so weird that everyone is so lonely. You'd think with all the lonely people in the world they'd get together and just stop being lonely. Nothing ever works that easily, though. Gosh, we're sure demented. I just don't get it.

I'm so tired. I feel so old sometimes. Old and worn out and just exhausted with the same feelings over and over. So unable to escape them. I don't even care who reads this right now. I don't even care. I'm so fucking tired and I need to vent somewhere or I'll just keep crying and crying and wishing someone would ask how I am and actually mean it.

Too tired to even sleep.