Here I am, sitting at my computer, half naked, chain smoking and playing freecell like a madman, when I should be out looking for a job. But I've got too much on my mind to do anything worthwhile today.

Earlier this week, I got an email from a female who I was infatuated with, which said she couldn't call me by my name because she fell in love with someone whose name is also Kevin. Which made me feel bad because I was hoping that maybe she would come back to the states and realize that I was this great guy and maybe love me like I loved her.

In addition, the two people I care about most in this world are in financial trouble. And I want to help them in whatever way I can, but I owe over $4000 in student loan payments. Which is why i should be looking for a job.

Although, there is one good thing to look forward to, my cousin's bachelor party this weekend.

Plans for tomorrow: buy more cigarettes, withdraw money from bank, find a job, any job, because I need money for my nicotine.