is here noe, she's actually sleep
ing not more than 3 feet away. I love
her. Is it possible to love more than one person?
I think so. I think it's really evil
that I can only give my love
to one woman
. I don't think it's fair
, damnit, to me or them. I think they are both wonderful women
that deserve love. I don't think I have a fixed amount of love
and once I run out that's it, I think love can be created
. This is really tear
ing me up inside.
I think I may be able to cover my rent payment of $250. Financial situation is looking brighter, kinda. At least until I realize I owe my school 1000 bucks (U.S.), and my credit cards about 2000 (together), still from last year's stupid actions. On account of my stupidity, I've decided to re-inact an urban legend I heard once, even though I'm only partially serious. If you want, send your spare pennies to me: Dan Maurer - 405 Normal - Normal, IL 61761. If I get anything, these pennies will go toward my tuition.
Reading list: I must finish The House of the Spirits by 6pm Sunday and Memoirs of a Beatnik before I have to return it to it's rightful owner, but I also aquired A Supposedly Fun Thing I'll Never Do Again and A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius, and people were asking me all about A.H.W.O.S.G. and I had no idea what to say to them. A semi-autobiography? I, myself, slowing up on writing lately, but I've got ideas. I need to keep going with a piece about Jesus as a raver. It rains nearly every time I add onto it. David Foster Wallace influences my writing too much. I use footnotes, but I really don't see them as his invention, because I had always used them, well, until an early creative writing teacher told me it was a bad idea. I've re-started doing it, though. I even have published proof. Doesn't matter. I know what I'm doing. Kind of.
Schoolwork is piling up, but I don't care. I'm only here for this last year and after that I'll go to work for a while, about a year, then go off to Graduate School. I hope I'll go back to school.
Interesting new music I've heard: Horrorist's One Night in New York City: Semi-Scary techno. Mudvayne's new album kicks all sorts of ass. I've downloaded oodles of Robert Johnson mp3's. Foetus, too, considering I can't find their records anywhere near where I live. I'm getting noticeably better on the guitar now that I've set aside practise time every day for myself. I've made a couple contacts for band-formation and maybe I'll get together with them and do something.