I woke up early because I expected to see my ex-girlfriend, of four years, today. The two things sad about this are, 11:00 am was early to me and I was half looking forward to seeing her to, "show her how much I've grown." Goes to show how much I actually haven't grown. I was noding through most of the early morning from midnight to 5:45 am. I want to go out today, but I don't think I'll be doing anything because I'm broke and somewhat depressed. A year ago today I was still with my ex. I've been waiting for the time when I won't be able to say that anymore. Everyday till then is most likely going to seem the same way they all have. They're combining to be one long drawn out moment in my life. So there is my life on this day, July 10, 2000.