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Is that it?
I've bought with you with my coffee?

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[I will sell you all of me; complete. Starting price, ten dollars|You own me] from long ago,but you just don't know it.
Yet.

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I try and try to tell you,but I can't express it with words - and you know it! I'll use secret paths to reach the smallest distance between us.
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It's like instead walking 2 meters to go to your bed,you jump out of your window and take a train,and then a plane, and only to encircle the Earth backwards to your bed.
My firewall of invisible protections against the cruel world won't let me!
Help me turn off my automatic updates!
Please insert a [Trojan|Trojan] in a hidden data transfer and corrupt all my files...Infect all my directories and folders,steal my passwords,Oh! Please!





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