Album and song by The Cure. Definitely their hardest album to listen to. This is not to say it's not really good. Smith wallows in self hate throughout the whole thing, and it's accompanied by appropriate music. Some people like to think that the songs on Disintegration are suicidal, but this is the album where Smith really does it. Here's a sampling of some of the more disturbing lyrics:
Bananafishbones:
"Or leave it senseless like a suck on a gun?
Put a piece of metal in your head you said
Make you dead
Make you hippa hippa hippa"
Give Me it:
"Slit the cats like cheese
Then eat the sweet sticky things
Suck harder suck harder
Suck your insides insides out"
"Look at the piggy
Piggy in the mirror" (Smith has several "fat" songs)
Shake Dog Shake:
"Wake up in the dark
The after-taste of anger in the back of my mouth
Spit it on the wall
And cough some more
And scrape my skin with razor blades...
As stale and selfish as a sick dog
Spurning sex like an animal of god
I'll tear your red hair by the roots
And hold you blazing
Hold you cherished in the dead electric light"
Here's the lyrics to the song, "The Top":
I don't care
If only I could say that
And not feel so sick and scared
I don't care
If only I could say that
If only my eyes would close
It's jesus brilliant
You used to laugh
Walking these gorgeous blocks
This top is the place
Where nobody goes
You just imagine
You just imagine it all
Every day I lie here
And know that it's true
All I really want is you
Please come back
Please come back
Like all the other ones do
Please come back
All of you