I told the other girl
"I love you
," today, and that's not a lie
. I love
her, and this is not changing my love
for my girlfriend
. My girlfriend
is a wonderful woman
, but it's as if my relationship
with her has degraded to friends with benefits
, albeit my best friend
, but it still remains the case that I need something more
. That might be coward
ly of me, to not comprimise
on my desires
Watched futurama today, it was the episode about the poplers or whatever. Funny stuff.
Read a bit of David Foster Wallace's essay on David Lynch's Lost Highway in A Supposedly Funny Thing I'll Never Do Again. Cool stuff. And more of Bitch: In Praise of Difficult Women. I think Elizaveth Wurtzel alternates between brilliance and insanity. Well, maybe I don't get it.
Tomorrow, I go back to work. Sucks.
I'm not entirely sure, though, what I need. Am I being selfish? Does my love for one lessen when I give love to another? I will think about it, but I'm beginning to think that I run on a different relationship OS called polyamory. Such is life.