Yesterday, I did something terrible. Terrible, terrible, terrible. Downvote me if you will, but I need to say it. I hate myself for allowing it to happen and I keep playing it over and over in my mind, in an horrific loop, trying to change the past, afraid to see the future.
What I was doing, I'm not sorry for. Who got caught up in it... one of the people I love most... that's what I'm sorry for.
I won't go into the details. I can't even talk about them, really. But I needed to record it, to write it down, so I won't forget and fuck up again. Thanks for listening.