If the Lord
exists then he is certainly shining down in my favor. Perhaps you may remember my last and only prior daylog (July 8, 2001
) and the hatred which insued from it. Well, I have recently been blessed.
I spent a week at Baylor
University in Waco, Texas
for an All State Choir camp and met the most incredible female in existence
*wavy pattern appears over screen, flashback sequence begins*
In cafeteria line...
*The next morning*
Random Girl: Oh, excuse me
Me: No Problem... continues towards food...
/me eating breakfast...
Random Girl approaches table: May I sit here?
Me *dazed an confused* : uh... yeah, sure
RG:What's your name?
Me *still in early morning stupor*:umm... Tony... you?
I didn't know it at breakfast, but I was going to fall head over heals in love with this woman. For the next three days, not an hour of free time was spent apart. Finally, one of us has the bright idea of asking where the other is FROM....
Jess: So, where do you live?
Me: Fort Worth, you?
Me: Where's that?
Jess: Near Houston....
Me *thinking*: DOH!
Now for those of you that don't know Texas geography, Willis is three hours from Fort Worth. This is not good. While I had absolutely no trouble with the fact that she was three hours away, she did....
*Last flashback, we promise....*
/me is walking up to stage for rehearsal
/Jess yanks me off stage to talk
Jess: Listen, I haven't been trying to avoid you today, it's just that I'm trying not to get hurt.
Me: *blank stare of confusedness*
Jess I don't think I can handle a long distance relationship. I'm only 16, I don't need this kind of pain right now, I don't want to miss you constantly or not be able to talk to you whenever I want blah blah blah blah blah but I really do like you and I want to stay friends so I'd like to get your address and phone number so we can keep in touch.
Me (no longer dazed): Ok, that's fine, I can respect your not wanting a long distance relationship, but I must say the following: You are beautiful, and talented, and intelligent - which is rare
Jess *interupting*: OH, I'm glad you think our gender in stupid
Me: No, I don't, I'm paying you a compliment, shut up. And I really like you and want to be with you. Lastly, if it will change your mind at all, I want you to know that 3 hours is by NO means too far for me to drive.
Jess: *gives me big hug and smiles* I'm sorry...
So, for a good day or two I was mildly heartbroken
, heck, I'd only known her 4 days. I immediately wrote her upon my arrival home telling her anything and everything I had forgotten while we were together. Then, as luck would have it, Monday night the phone rang.
*Ok, so we lied, one more...*
Jess: Hello, may I speak with Tony?
Me: This is he, what's up?
Jess: Hi... it's Jessica, listen... Back at Baylor, on Saturday... I was stupid. After talking to my parents I... or at least they :).... realized that what I was really afraid of was that for once a guy I liked was as smart or smarter than me and I was afraid of being inferior.
Me: Don't be.
Jess: *smiles* (don't ask how I know she was smiling, I just do)
Me: So... does this mean you're willing to give it a shot?
Jess: Yeah, I think so.
Me: So, if I were to some to Willis on August 2nd you wouldn't object and would like to see me?
Jess: Yeah, pretty much
/me does the happy dance....
You may be wondering, "What's so perfect about this girl that makes you want to chase her halfway across Texas?!?"
Well the answer is simple, aside from the things mentioned above - beauty, intelligence, talent, kindness etc - the girl is Baptist. This would normally turn me off, but she is the only baptist that told me "That's cool" when I said I was agnostic. The fact that she didn't care that.... I don't care :)... was beautiful. The only other thing that makes her more desirable to me than anyone else - she genuinely wants to be with ME.
So there we have it, if said god exists, He hurt me
, then toyed with me
, and then - when he had had his fun - gave me back my ego, my heart, and my happiness.
Countdown to Willis: 11 days, 13 hours, 20 minutes