When I was at
college last year for the
first time, also my
first time away from home I began to feel
intensely alone.
I never wanted to feel that way again so I started thinking, in a somewhat
depressed state of mind, of ways to avoid it in the future.
I came up with what I thought was a
good idea but now I don't know. I thought that maybe my
sister and her
friend(mine as well) could come live with me while I was at college, I was so
depressed and
selfish that when I talked about it with them it only served to drive them away from the whole idea. Now niether of them wants to do it and i'm not going to try and force them. If I had it to do all over again I would
kick my own ass for treating them so
poorly.
I now have to come up with some
other way to avoid the
loneliness which is a big part of the
depression that I was feeling and I refuse to become depressed again. However, once I feel alone in one place I tend to feel alone everywhere whether I am or not so i'll have to work on it and I would greatly
appreciate any
suggestions from anyone who has ever been in a
similar situation.
So far the only idea I have is to get my driver's
license and a car so that I can come home to visit them whenever possible.