There's got to be a word for how I'm feeling right now. I'm very disconnected...that feeling of a link between this event and that event in your past, or hell, even in your present, is getting very hard to find. I'm having a hard time remembering what day it is, where I am and where I need to go next, when the last time I ate was.

I'm sick, I couldn't eat for 48 hours (not sure if the cause was physical or emotional), and I'm recovering from...I hesitate to call it heartbreak (for that would mean admitting that I have one) but can't think of anything else to call it. The mental and the physical are intertwining, I don't know what's causing what feeling, I just know that it's not good.

Did I cry out my soul the other night? It sure as hell felt like it...

I just feel like I'm not even here.