I... just can't get out of bed
. Not today, not yesterday, not monday. I'm beginning to wonder if there's something wrong with me. I have no motivation left
, no desire, no excitement. The only thing with me right now is this dark cloud over my head. I'm NOT smiling
. I know I've gone through some major psychological issues
lately, and all very quickly, but for some reason... I just don't think those are the problem. I don't care
about them anymore. I don't care about ANYTHING anymore. I've either suddenly hit an extreme lazy
point in my life, or I'm really seriously depressed
and won't admit it. I don't know what to do. At least I broke down and cried last night. I haven't cried in awhile. And it was over something silly too. My father came home from work, and he had bought me a cookie. One chocolate chip cookie
. Something so little and insignificant, yet it meant so much to me for no reason. I broke down and sobbed
for a good twenty minutes over that cookie.
My mind is just muddled. I need out of here.