I haven't been logging / journalling dreams in 2-3 years, but this one was too weird
I have had this dream before, in excruciating detail. Only now I am dreaming
that I am going to watch a (horror-ish / Matrix-ish) movie with my kids. This
brings on anxiety because they're too young (13/10) for this material.
It's like a war. I and 2-3 friends are in a long-running series of exchanges
with something evil.
Scenarios, we are trying to evade / survive. At every new step we are confronted
with some variant on a huge insect (these seem to actually be man-made drones
which may contain small agents hostile too us.
A car which a moment ago was flying and is piloted by a friend, chased by the
evil overturns and grinds to a halt, throwing sparks as the roof disintegrates.
My friend cannot be alive, it's greusome, I worry for my kids, who are watching
this movie that I seem to be in.
In a moment of relative calm I stop to have sex with a woman, again I worry
that my kids are watching this movie. There is tension and the need for release
in a dangerous situation.
'next' we discover that small dots have been planted and we are spied on and
the enemy has known some of our moves for days - near panic, we continue to
try to evade.
At one point one of these insects flies into the vehicle I'm escaping in. I
know this is bad and try to hold it down to close the small & dangerous doors
(against the steering wheel). but there are too many and the agents come out
and bite (or something) and now vision is thru a purple haze
Shortly later there is another crash and then we are confronted with something
large and evil beyond comprehension. Fear wells up and I'm trying to choose
a course of action, and awake to ponder wtf this dream was sent to me for?
here an hour later, having checked my email and taken time to reflect and
absorb .. it's 0600, I'm awake for an hour and would rather not have awaken
unitl 8:30 becuase it's a day with commitments ... still, now the dream feels
My life is complex, there's decisions daily about how to get to a simpler, less
stressful place (and most choices affect my kids). We've been reading LOTR
aloud, and just lastnight we stopped in the midst of "the choices of master
Samwise". Hehe, I guess my choices look easier than his anyhow :-)