Watering plants is something I must do, more watering that is, I think the summer heat
is setting in a bit, and they're thirsty leetle things. It's odd how little summer we've had this year so far, I've a feeling it will come in late and surprise us all. I don't particularly enjoy the heat but I guess it's bound to happen despite my feelings on the matter
I hurt my shoulder somehow, possibly rolling around in the grass
, but it was oh so fun and worth it despite unwelcome slightly annoying pain.
The baby bunnies are getting bigger, which I like not for they aren't our bunnies really, my sister is raising them for someone else
. He will probably end up selling them for meat.. I don't think I can let that happen. I may have to hide them all somewhere. This is precisely the reason that I wish I were vegetarian
, I always feel hypocritical saying that people shouldn't eat bunnies, when in all reality anything I get close to is going to seem like non good food'y matter
. It's sort of similar to the fact that I can be sad when a bunch of people are killed in a plane crash
, but I didn't know them so it won't effect me quite so much as it would if they were people I knew on a personal level
. Of course, I can still feel loss there, but it's just not going to be the same. Bleh.
This day is.. too much for me I don't know how much more of this intense
happy, overwhelming feeling
I can take. I never want it to stop, but I also think it's taking every last bit of energy from my body and pouring it into these emotions that I can't even describe
. I don't think I knew these feelings existed.
I keep sitting here and cradling my head in my hands
, wondering at the fact that you could be, and that you would care to even think twice about someone like me. I feel so out there like I'm letting you in more than I've let others in, and more quickly.. it's frightening. I love you, so much but every time I want to tell you I crumble
because I can't believe how strongly I feel, and I'm scared, not of loving you, but something else, maybe I just need to let things happen
and not fret. I'm always scared but, not like this.. I want this to be more real than anything in my life has ever been. I don't know if that makes any sense
to anyone but me, I just know that above all it is what I want.
I guess I have some things to do today, I guess I should get doing them soon.
note: *ahem*. Thanks to those who would pollute my innocent grass rolling with sexual implications
! I was ALONE in the grass, thank you very much, it was harmless frolick