work party
Your alcohol fueled laughter
Your male bravado
Your jokes
Your cigars
Your discussions of family life
Your jokes at my expense
All I raise is blushes

friends party
Your easy way with others
Your small talk
Your laughter
Your comfortable stance
Your relaxation
All I raise is discomfort

in a bar
your easy wit
your body language
your clothes that look good
your flirting your sly glances your easy manner All I raise is a nod

at work
your bantering around the coffee machine
your lunch cliques
your easy project meetings
your telephone manner with others
all I feel is exclusion

It's not hard to throw a line my way
Some way to drag me in
I stand waiting, lonely, excluded and make my excuse to leave early.