I never understood this phrase
until pretty recently. I always thought 'they're totally opposite, right?' Wrong. I'd been seeing this girl
for about 8 month
s when she decided to go out with her mates
one night and ended up getting off (aka making out
-speak) with another guy
. I was totally into her and she says she was totally into me, (I believe
her) so as you can probably guess I was a little miff
ed, to say the least. Anyway, after acting like a wuss
about it for a while I decided I didn't really want her back anyway. So I got my stuff back and haven't spoken to her since. I'm not sure if this was a good idea
or not, but that's a whole other node...
So like I was saying, we loved each other. We had no bones about saying it, loved to hear it and had no trouble showing it. Then it happened. What was love fairly quickly turned to hate. I've had a while to think about this now, and I'm okay with it. The reason goes a little like this: (and here's the real point of the node)
Loving someone entails putting a whole load of trust in them. This makes you very vulnerable to having that trust abused. When this happens you end up feeling all betrayed, and for some of us that usually goes straight on into hatred.
I wish I could be one of those people who just forgets and goes on. And I tried to be for a while, but for me it's just not right. For those that can I guess the line between love and hate could still be fine, it's just moved further over to the hate side. (ie. someone has to deserve it more to cross the line into hatred)
For people like me the line is fine and crossing it's not too hard.