, who needs to hear this now - and you know who you are - I love you
. I always have. When we were children
crawling through the back hallways of the church
, or running wild through the woods around my house, or just generally making life hell
for our parents, you were my best friend
and I loved you.
You are a wonderful, precious person, and you deserve so much more than what you have. I understand the place you are in now, and I know how horrible it is. I have been there. I have tried to escape through the same means you are considering. But it won't work. There are those who love you who will not let you go - myself included. And you will hit rock-bottom much quicker if you try to escape this way. From where you are now, you have a chance to begin the climb out of the shadowy abyss without hitting the hard, jagged rocks at the bottom. And yes, I know it is hard. But it is the best and ultimately least painful thing you can do now.
I wish I could take it all away, and make everything better for you, but I can't. I can only be here for you, and let you know that I love you, and that I always will.