This was my
25th birthday. I kept it quiet. A few people remembered anyway, and they seemed surprised that I hadn't organised some sort of
celebration.
"Its your quarter-century!" they said ( I wince since this is not what you want to hear during the old
quarter-life crisis )
"Why aren't you out with your friends?"
Well heres why...
So lets assume I've decided to organise something - first question: Do I invite
her?
No no no and no. I'm not ready for that. I'm not sure I ever will be.
I live in fear of running into her on the bus. I couldn't possibly invite her and even pretend to have
fun.
Ok so now - Do I invite our
mutual friends? These happen to be some of my
closest friends ( or at least they were ) but I cant invite them without it being
painfully obvious that I haven't invited
her. While this may provide me with a small amount of
bitter satisfaction, Its not what I really want. Anyway the night would be
awkward if her absence was mentioned or even worse
avoided from being mentioned at all costs.
So perhaps I can just not invite anyone from that whole group. I could spend the night without some of my closest friends and hope they don't find out about it..
no
I don't think I'll bother - I'd rather just
get takeout and watch whatever crap movie is on TV.
and so that's what I did