This was my 25th birthday
. I kept it quiet. A few people remembered anyway, and they seemed surprised that I hadn't organised some sort of celebration
"Its your quarter-century!"
they said ( I wince since this is not what you want to hear during the old quarter-life crisis
"Why aren't you out with your friends?"
Well heres why...
So lets assume I've decided to organise something - first question: Do I invite her
No no no and no
. I'm not ready for that. I'm not sure I ever will be. I live in fear of running into her on the bus
. I couldn't possibly invite her and even pretend to have fun
Ok so now - Do I invite our mutual friends
? These happen to be some of my closest friends
( or at least they were ) but I cant invite them without it being painfully obvious
that I haven't invited her
. While this may provide me with a small amount of bitter satisfaction
, Its not what I really want. Anyway the night would be awkward
if her absence was mentioned or even worse avoided from being mentioned at all costs
So perhaps I can just not invite anyone from that whole group. I could spend the night without some of my closest friends and hope they don't find out about it..
no I don't think I'll bother
- I'd rather just get takeout and watch whatever crap movie is on TV
and so that's what I did