of your heart
is where you push all the emotions you want to forget about, the lovers
you want to get over
, the friends
you somehow lost
. In the back of my heart, I still love my first flame
, but most of the time, that's not a present thought
. There'll be something that reminds me
of her. Something someone says, or a song on the radio
. Sometimes she'll just sneak up
on me from the back of my heart
in a conversation
. Out of the blue
, I'll say something like, "Oh.. Sara always liked that.."
I should push my ex into the back of my heart but I can't. It's not time yet. Right now, she still is the foremost in my thoughts. Right now, everything reminds me of her.
Maybe I'll call my first love today. I haven't heard her voice in a while, and it'll appease the howl in the back of my heart.