It is hard,  seriously hard.  Figuring out how to evaluate someone who is not around to talk at anymore.   

Not talk with- talk at- as in:

 my words and his face,  looking past me or around me, but hardly ever At me. 

So now, after the fact, I see him differently.  I mean seriously disfigured by both memory and regret. 

How did he treat his friends?  How did he drive ?  What type of clothes did her wear ?   I remember few details

Seriously,  imagine going to a concert and only remembering the music that the sound crew played before the Real Band started playing.  It was not like I was wasted or that the band walked out halfway through their set.  It was simply that I lost track because I was paying attention to something else. Someone else.   

And of course,  he was not paying attention to me at all.   His special gift.  That part I am sure of. 

Now years later,  I try and

Six months ago, I said I would update on this date. Have major structural issues in the United States economy and society been solved yet? The answer is: no.

There is a lot of chaos. Like I said the first time around, this all happens very fast and it is hard to keep track of what is happening. Elon Musk? Bombing Iran? Jeffrey Epstein? Yep, that

"[sipping a freshly-made coffee] Mmm. Goddamn, Jimmie. This is some serious gourmet shit. Me and Vince would've been satisfied with some freeze-dried Taster's Choice, right? Heh! And he springs this serious gourmet shit on us."
—jules WInnfield in Pulp Fiction

If the first wave was epitomised by Mr. Coffee, and the second by Starbucks, the third is represented by the single-origin