OK, I hate this, completely.. OK yea, I'm just a lowly
moron trying to get up
to the next
level and yea, I'm a complete
hoor... I'm stuck tho...
I'm sitting here
balls to the wall, 11:57 and I have nothing to
write-up...
I have nothing decent to say at all... I had a good day today, I got a lot
done at work... and this particular write-up is the last one I need to
move up a level... I feel so
cheap, so dirty, as if I climbed into
someone's
smelly sheets
nude and I can feel the
fleas flicking and writhing in
my leg hair. Ugh... don't you feel
dirty just for having read that? Reading it again gave me the
creeps.
I have to post this before I just delete the whole thing just to stamp that last
phrase from my mind like some skittering
spider...
But I've just stooped and I hate that - it makes
the triumph I should feel by moving to the next level feel as if I'm
slinking by it and hoping that no one will notice me with my face hid beneath a
hood. I have to do it tho... I can't walk away and go to bed with that
last write-up glaring at me....oh well
I guess, while I'm here in sleaze-town, I might as well pick up a Big Mac
and fries.
Today's stuff?
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Managed to get out of teaching a class to my co-workers? (and wondering if I can
put it off another week?)
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After the disaster I thought my class was (last week), I realized I'd actually
learned something about Perl and JavaScript(shock)
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The "little" project I'd been putting off and putting off came to a head
today and I managed to pull it off and feel like a hero...
weird...
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I watched Babylon 5:A Call to Arms on sci-fi and was depressed to find that
it was just a set-up movie for their failed "crusade"
series... sigh.
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I realized that people haven't posted a lot of the music I listened to when I
was in high-school. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad
thing.
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Now I'm listening to Fraiser (on the TV in the other room) and trying to
think of a way to wrap this up without pandering to my usual: end it on a
trick phrase... I'm giving up....goodnight