I remember when I lived in New York
, and I thought my life was going to be picture perfect
I remember when David
and I used to go drive
around aimlessly, and we'd spent all night talking and singing until the sun roses.. partially out of being broke, partly just for fun.
I remember the looks on David's face when I found him cheating
I remember driving around fast and wrecklessly, while I cried.. the song Violet
was on the radio..
I remember when I left San Francisco
, knowing full well I wasn't going back.
I remember visiting Ed during my birthday
in 1998, and sitting out on the porch til 5am talking. I never felt so loved, by a friend.
I remember when I was in Seattle
, I lost some dignity when I cried when Jeff and I broke up. It hurt, and I knew that day I had lost one of my best friends
I remember when my dog died
. It was the first time I really dealt with death.
I remember when Blaine Steinberg shot himself
. So many people were going off on how close they were to him, when in reality.. it was all contrived. That was the first time I realized how low people could go.
I remember in high school
when I felt stupid
, and unwanted.
I remember in college, sitting in a theatre class.. the teacher wanted us all to stand up and say "I am special
, I am amazing
", and all I could do was run out of the class crying, because I couldn't utter those words.