9:40pm
it all resembles circular motions, yet never loops around to someplace familiar..
so i went to the
doctor Thursday morning. i'm not sure if i like him.
Wolfgang gave me
my birthday present early..
a trip to see my friends without him.. it is more than rad he understands my need to spend time
with my friends.. and even more that he recognizes i am so stressed and need a break
last night i fucked around for hours with my stupid web page and new
LiveJournal style. i was so tired, up for a gazillion hours.. which didn't help.. i just
could not get the stupid text to show right. the text isn't stupid i was.. and
overtired i refused to just walk away .. get some sleep.. and look at it
when i was coherent.. heh i haven't fixed it yet, but that is out of laziness.. i also kinda dread looking at, because when i do i will see
how much
time i wasted out of stubbornness
today was just me running errands.. i am staying home tonite.. or i will just go over to wolfgangs.. but that will just eventually
lead me to sleep..
my kittykat is over there.. i haven't seen
pouncer for a while.. i miss him..
i had a glass of
wine with my dinner.. i like wine's ability to make me not
drunk in one glass, but enough to make my shoulders sit normally
instead of all cramped up out of tension.. this is a physical sign of whats going on in my head
i never mind good
covers of song.. but i hate when a crappy band remakes a song i really like.. some dumb band remade "
How Soon is
Now?".. i couldn't believe the audacity.. how dare they touch something so sacred.. that song didn't need to be remade.. the original was
something to remain untouched.. especially not to be released on crappy
teenybopper top 40 stations.. i am old, hypocritical, and i just don't get
what the kids listen to..