A long time ago I remember either thinking or hearing, if you don't take your vacations, you'll be forced to take time off when you get sick. I haven't been good about getting away. I do a lot of other things for myself, but I haven't made time away from these same four walls a priority. I spent some time working on my budget. I'm going to write it out on paper to help me track my spending and cash flow. Big phone bills mean I have to cut elsewhere, not a good feeling. But my tax return will be here soon. Still very tired even though I slept until almost noon. Having a blah day which feels like a setback, but is probably just me needing the rest I haven't been taking for myself. Going back to bed to read Planning Your Prosperity by Ken Fischer which is an excellent, well written book that deserves more readers.
A quick update on cards last night. I'm grateful for the small group of friends I've made at this apartment complex. There was an awkward moment when the guy who likes me made a comment about wishing he was my partner. He plays the game differently than we do, but at least last night he played. It was pretty annoying to get there and find him monopolizing one of the other card playing members. I have no problem with people chatting, but if you're attending a function where the object is to play a game or cards, and you're not participating and you're preventing someone else who is needed to play, and may want to play, then I feel that is very rude. He left early and that was a relief. I'm not sure what I'm going to do if he makes card night a weekly thing like the rest of us. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.
The weather is very drab and cold here. My oldest has the day off, I want to do something with her, but am lacking energy and motivation. Also really need to buy groceries, but am conscious of the money crunch. This too shall pass. I'm equipped with more information than I had and I'm taking steps to curtail my out of control spending on groceries. Thank goodness I get a discount at work. That helps, but it also makes it easier to shop at work since I fall into the - look how much I'm saving - trap. Going to make a list of things I want to do and buy. This is a tip from a money conscious friend of mine. Too often I have no plan. Thankfully that seems to be changing. Perhaps you can teach old dogs a new trick or two. I'm still optimistic despite not feeling well, the money pressure is temporary, that's a big stress relief. I remember days in the past where it seemed as if the walls, ceiling, and floor were pressing in on me, is seemed as if there was no escape, but there was.
Until next time,
J
P.S. Really looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. I wrote another poem and one I didn't finish. My fiction, like everything else around here, has been sadly neglected. Would like to get to the yarn store today, but probably not wise without money. I'll get there eventually, just need to be patient.
Be well,
j