he likes to just sit and watch what i am doing, i don't think he really cares what it is, or if i talk so much, but he likes to sit there and
be. and he hasn't said one god damn thing, about how hard this is for him and he hasn't complained that i've changed or that i am not the same person. and it makes me sad to know i am going to make him sad again.
he's so tired these days, so tired.. i guess i am too.
i just feel
guilty. that is what this house does to me. because i can't help anyone here. because i need support and i can't get it here, but it really could be so much worse.