Hmm....trying to kick an old habit. It's like trying to break up with a boyfriend you can't admit you don't love anymore. And when the gowing gets tough, and that evil monster rears his ugly head, I want to go back so badly. Just once, just twice, the voice in my head whispers. But I will not listen, i will not give in. There is too much hope and promise of good times to come. So I'll weather the present and search for sunlight.