My life is empty
My world is empty
A void has eaten away at my happiness
That void has become me
Others might not see it
It imitates me well.
But I know who I have become
No feelings of truth, of love
Only a black hole
Which every day I descend into
I know there is no hope of escaping
It's a bottomless pit of despair
An eternal suffering
I reach for something to keep me safe
Always, my arm falls short
Or maybe, just maybe
The safety's a hallucination
Like water in a desert
An empty hope
An empty life

me -10/23/95