Sometimes I really hate the fact that I don't really know how to tell people about the feelings that I have. Last night while hanging up with my boyfriend, I had a song inside of my soul that I wanted to sing to him, but I couldn't get it out. My feelings are like a plague that spreads throughout my body, and sometimes the plague helps me out, sometimes I don't even know where it comes from. It often hurts me that I can't get out the things that I want to say. Most of the time I know what I want to say I just don't know what words to use. Like, sometimes hyperboles aren't strong enough for me to express my feelings.

I want to tell my boyfriend how much I loved him, but I just don't know how. I'm not ready to show him how much I love him, because I want my first time to be special. I don't want it to be rushed because my mother might be coming home soon, or because my little sister would definitely tell on me.

Sometimes, every once in a while, an artist will put out a song, or make a piece of art work that expresses how I feel. Then I feel like I'm not alone in the world.