I came so
close to a lucid dream
I was not especially tired last night, so in my light sleep I had long, confused, bad dreams. I don't remember much of them; I know these themes came up in order but somewhat blurred into each other...
All through these dreams, I had a sense of helplessness, and a feeling that I could improve my situation if only I was in control of it. What I needed was to make the dream a lucid one. At one point, I actually told myself: "Hey, maybe this is a dream. If this is a dream, I should be able to hit my head against that wall and it won't hurt." (thunk) "Ow. Now why did I do that? Of course this isn't a dream..."
I should have remembered to look at my hands.