it has been said, is being married to your best friend
That works out great. But what if you're in love with your best friend
, and she doesn't feel the same way?
Her name's Melissa, but we all call her Missy. I've known her for over 6 years now. She knows all my dark secrets
. I know hers.
And then one day, something happened. I fell in love with her. Not just these stupid highschool crushes
, actual, heart-wrenching love
. I was pretty sure she didn't feel the same way, so I didn't act on it. That was the biggest mistake of my whole life. She dated a few guys, and it hurt me to see them together, not only because they were not me, but because the relationships were shallow, pointless relationships based almost purely on sex
I gave up, decided I didn't feel like being alone, so I went out with some girl (who I didn't much like, but I knew she liked me.) That relationship
lasted for over a year, but it distracted me so I didn't end it untill she REALLY got on my nerves. Anyways, we broke up and my feelings for Melissa came back with a vengeance
I haven't been able to look at anyone, or talk to anyone, or even casually think of anyone, and still be able to feel anything since. I've tried. There's a few people, all intelligent
, good looking, fun to be with and all that other great stuff, and who like me to top it off, but they don't do anything for me. All I can think of is her.
I asked her the other day "If I were to ask you out
(I'm not going to) what would your response be?". She replied that "We're too good friend
s, you're like a brother
to me. Sorry". This is over ICQ
. She can't see me crying. "Meh, just wondering"
I found out today from a friend that she's mad at me. She'd rather not go on our semi-regular coffee
I fucked it up. I fucked up the most important friendship I ever had. I fucked it up because i had to go and fall in love.
And yet, I still can't get over her.