Unsafe thoughts.
Not like 1984 Orwellian
Thought Police kind of
unsafe thoughts, but the kind that you know will get you into
trouble one way or the other. You hate to
harbor them, yet somehow it
thrills you to the
depths of your soul to think about them regardless of the
consequences. Rather than having to find it,
trouble follows you while you
ponder these things, rolling them
around your
mind like a pencil between
two fingers. You reassure yourself with
small words like "
I love trouble" and "
I know what I'm doing" but of course you never fully realize the
outcome of your
impure mental meanderings until they
come to fruition.
I'm thinking those kinds of thoughts right now, and I'm hoping they'll come true, if for no other reason than to engage my mind in another course, the tracks of which inevitably lead to brash, untamed, unruly, unsafe thoughts.