cars fit two adults comfortably, three skinny adolescents, or four children (somewhat cramped). At all three stages, I have absolutely love
d the ride.
I remember being cozied into the car with one cousin and two sisters, our knuckles dirty and our bellies full of cotton candy
, shouting to lean left, or lean right. The smell of sawdust and the strange trust in the knowledge of the ride operator, as if he was the one who had engineer
ed the ride himself. The lap bar would lock on our skinny thighs and we would squirm around waiting for the ride to start... and hoping that our car would keep spinning long after the ride had stopped. Sometimes the car would whip around at the very end and keep spinning like that, and we would all lean as hard
as we possibly could, thinking this would keep us going - but the operator
would just freeze the track anyway.
in the Tilt-A-Whirl with a boy and a friend, so close I could smell his Juicy Fruit
gum and see the little hairs growing out of his neck
. The strange feeling of sliding unreasonably close
to a real live boy
. It was exciting, an orchestrated car crash
scaled down to fit my life. Heart pounding, trying to keep my clothes and hair adjust
ed while looking as if I'm not trying at all, and forgetting
all about it when the car
was in motion. Screaming, laughing and sliding across a vinyl bench seat
- touching a boy's thigh through his pale blue jeans and smelling his sweat.
Waiting in line for the Tilt
-A-Whirl at 22, shifting from one foot to the other, having to pee but hating the smell of the port-a-potties
. The lap bar doesn't feel the way it used to because I actually have thighs now. My boyfriend slides in with me, and gives me a quick little hug
. Chewing gum, freckles, sunburned, holding a stuffed animal he won for me. Marmaduke. I don't care about him, I just want the ride, the ride
, I want to spin and get whipped out of my skull for three minute
s. There's too much space and we collide when I shout to lean, he mumbles ouch, he doesn't understand. It doesn't matter, it's the ride
. We spin, screaming and laughing, and I am a trinity
of Jen past, present, and future. I am young with knotted hair, standing on the edge of adulthood
with cotton balls in my bra and heat in my groin, I am now, and I combine.
There is everything right with the Tilt-A-Whirl.