thoughts followed by tears drenched in bliss
i needed to feel you, inside
i was lost and distant and trying
trying to find my way back
floating around in a sea of
mismatched thoughts and
wilting celery stalks
did you see me? i was waving
and then you found me (or i found you)
right there, beside the tree
the tree we met beneath
subconciously, reality fades to truth
knowing my thoughts before i do
it's creepy, crazy, intensely neat
watch me pretend that i could stop you
if i wanted to
it's funny but his apologies
and it's odd, but his smile
like a scowl
it's frightening but
i see your
in my dreams at night
i've found security in your depth
did i dream
i forget to breathe when you
"i love you"
because i believe it.
you've said things i wanted to hear once
things i thought i'd never hear again
i didn't want to..
it seems all i needed was you.
"he took me by surprise
with his words and his ways, and the sound of his voice
is with me always, past the end
of mortal days"
now because i know
, it's too late for him, it's too late to say he's sorry
words slip past, through, around thoughts, i catch them in my paper cup and put them here for you