i cannot listen to myself speak for any length of time. it creates this incredible sense of horrible insecurity i need to know that you aren't sitting there
nodding and smiling i deserve more than nodding and smiling.
such peculiar things happen in this life and i have no idea what's going on right now
at all.
broken broken broken broken broken broken broken broken broken.
how i feel is like a...
so don't hold me to anything. i can't remember half a second ago or maybe i don't want to. this is just hard lately.
things are crumbling and holding and falling and perfectly wrong.