As I lay there watching the movie the stress settled into
me like an old blanket. I am stressing about my personal issues. I am stressing
about a decision I have just made. I am stressing because of the ache in my heart that pulls at me and cries out to be loved.
But mostly, I am stressing because I fear that somehow this
may harm our friendship. I love you and it would tear me apart
to loose your friendship. To walk away from this and have us never speak
All these things are crashing about in my head right now. I know it is
silly. I know that there is no reason
to stress about it now.. maybe not ever. But I am, and I do. You mean a
lot to me.