As I lay there watching the movie the stress settled into me like an old blanket. I am stressing about my personal issues. I am stressing about a decision I have just made. I am stressing because of the ache in my heart that pulls at me and cries out to be loved. But mostly, I am stressing because I fear that somehow this may harm our friendship. I love you and it would tear me apart to loose your friendship. To walk away from this and have us never speak again.

All these things are crashing about in my head right now. I know it is silly. I know that there is no reason to stress about it now.. maybe not ever. But I am, and I do. You mean a lot to me.