i've never had words
for anyone else, never as i do now, somehow the feelings almost spill properly from time to time and i think it is almost possible you might know just how lost i am for you
. i blink, and i hold my eyelids closed, float in thoughts of everything that you are..
i am somewhat completely exhausted
tonight, but not in the conventional manner, i am sleepy somehow, and will rest, some time.
i think that perhaps today is going to be not nearly as beautiful as yesterday, but i've also the feeling that i will smile muchly, despite the aching in my heart
as i do miss him greatly.
these things all end.. who asked you, anyway?
i know i should have at least slightly more motivation than i do at present as i have almost none
, but still, i mind not the leetle things scattered about the floor waiting for me
to return them to their proper place. as many of them have no place at all
, they'll just be pushsed aside temporarily, gather dust
, keep me company those times when i can't seem to find solace without slipping deep into my own head.
sometimes, i need this.
this alone time when i accomplish more or phenomenally less than i should, both mentally and in terms of material matter organized
and circle, silver cleanliness
i found them
, through missing tears, without you
, i found them. thank you.