Imagine suddenly having to part your daily life. You must replace most of the things you were used to - friends, work, recreational activities, goals. dreams.
This isn't as bad as it sounds, difficult at first, but tolerable.
Now imagine having to visit your old life again every 3 weeks for 30 hours each time. Imagine having to see everything you worked on for so long rot.
Each and every time you visit more and more things you cared so much about not so long ago are turning against you.
you have got exactly 29:32 hours to fix your messed up life. go !
don't join the army. it's no good.