I did him
like a
chore,
our clumsy coupling drawing
an
undulating line through another
of that summer’s essential ‘to dos” –
less disappointing than
Raging Bull,
but not in the same league
as
Queen live at
Wembley.
It's a pity I'd done "
heartbreak"
the
Christmas before,
without that, I'd have been
obligated, driven
to
tumble into love;
I could have made
tragedy from
history:
sadder, yet infinitely
more satisfying.
Still, there was added value:
the
hangover,
the
pregnancy scare
both well up to expectations --
a never-to-be-repeated
package
three key experiences at a single
low, low price:
a little
guilt,
a little
fear
and the smallest patch of
tarnish
on my silvered dreams.