Display other thoughts to those around than the ones you
need to show. If in turmoil
show anger.
Take the kind words that show you care and store them away. Spit sarcasm like venom.
When others make play and ask you to show the lighter side. Derision is a reply.
If in love, if every thought is turning to another, if you feel the fear of loss, feel that even the chance of something to hold onto exists
Kick, fight, don't let it speak out for you, break it before it breaks you.