I fell asleep to the sound of your voice. You kept saying that everything would be okay. And I kept hearing, "if you love me, I will ruin you."
And I said I know, I know, I know.
You touched my hair, and I woke up with less.
Later I stared into the sun for you, and then everything went black and the sun smiled. I didn't mean to break my toes. My vision was a gift to you, and my toes were a gift to the sun. I kicked doorways all day long.
You came up to me and said, "I'm an egomaniac."
And I said what?
And I meant what the hell are you talking about?, but you thought I didn't hear you. You reconsidered and said, "the sun is too damn bright."
And I said I know.
We walked in it, and you thought about yourself, and I thought about my hair, and my toes, and my eyes. I thought about you in the sun. You were lovely. The sun wasn't too bright. I wanted to tell you that. I meant I knew that you're an egomaniac.
I can't see that you don't see that.
I wanted to hold your hand and write in your palm with my finger. I would tap out SOS until you cried out to Samuel F.B. Morse for everything you've done.
I tapped on my thumb. Dots and dashes. Dots and dashes. You looked at me and said, "I hope the weather is better tomorrow," and I tapped all the louder still...---...