my mom's reply to
the note I wrote
her (I was born this way
July 8, 2000
I appreciate very much your little "snippit" from your online diary. It helps Mom a lot to
know what your
thinking and how you
feel. I'm sorry you feel like I give so many speeches, I am really only
trying to reach out to
I do agree that
a lot of times
it is much easier
to write how you feel about a subject than to talk about it. In
this situation, we are very emotional and we do tend to cry when discussing it.
I just want to
reassure you how
love you and to enforce to you that I would do anything for
you. I want you to understand that I don't love you in spite of you being gay. I
just love you and
I will always love you.
The things that upset
me are the very same things that upset you. I know your
not be easy
and I know that it is tuff when
you are different from the "norm", but at your age it is also tuff just "being" - sometimes.
I won't even guess
how painful and difficult it is to go through what a gay person goes through.
The most important thing to me is that you know that you can come to me under any circumstance, any time, and any place
- to discuss any thing you want to
discuss or to
talk about any problem you may
have. I may not know the answer or I may not even understand
but I will love you and listen to you and try to help you
as much as I can. This
is not because you are gay but because you
think you realize it but
I very seldom ever thing about
the gay part, but I think about you all the
time. Even though it may seem like it to you, not everything revolves around a persons sexual preference.
Average straight people
very seldom go around announcing that they are average, straight, people. You are very special in your own right, and your sexual preference doesn't take
that away from
one more thing, if I had the option of being me and
straight or being you and gay, I
would be you without
The thing that
scares me is in
that one page
you mentioned gay suicide and kill myself.. Honey, that
really is not an option and if
you ever feel that way, I
want you to
know so I can help you.
Also, please get past this thing of everytime I talk to you or correct you, it's because of the gay thing. Again, it's the Randy thing.
I love you,
It was a nice note in theory, but she still treated me the same way she did before...