that helps me through the day.
When I lost the person I loved the most I felt like everything good in me had died too. While talking to his spirit
I asked him to give me the strength to find my way through these difficult times
and I heard him say to me:
I have always been here. I am in you.
It was then that I realized that all the things that I loved about myself, Marty
, and life
were not lost when he died. They are still here, but they are stronger. Now I do not live my life for me alone. I live it for him as well. Every flower
I smell, I smell
for him as well. Every bite of his favorite ziti
, I taste
for him as well. When I sit on the porch
, he feels the breeze
on his skin, he hears the birds sing
and smells the fresh cut grass
I see the world
differently than I did yesterday. The sun is brighter
, the air sweeter
and my thoughts clearer. I feel the enormous responsibility of experiencing life for two but it comforts me. It makes me feel good to know that even though he is physically not on this earth
, he still lives.