I'll admit to the twinge of envy
as you settle your arms around me
and your breathing begins to change nearly instantly. If I am still for the next few minutes--no kiss
es, no question
s, no giggle
s, you will be asleep and I will be awake, intertwined with you. I try to imitate
you, imitate a sleeping person for long enough sometimes the body is fooled into becoming one too. But sometimes this trick
does not work. Still, I'd rather be here than anywhere else.
I continute to pantomime sleep so as not to disturb--feel the rise and fall of steady, strong breath, feel your heart beat. Often your muscles will twitch ever so slightly, your hands move over my body as you dream. Your arms are locked around me, if I wanted to move it would be difficult to...but I don't want to. Our bodies locked together like two puzzle pieces. From this vantage I can see your face peaceful in sleep, feel the breaths soft against my forehead. I can kiss you, and you will anticipate this unconsciously and will return my kiss.
I'd rather be here than anywhere else.