how the hands were placed around me as if I was some kind of toy. I felt used and manipulated
. I was out of control, with my hands tied
behind my back and legs tied
together at the ankles. I had to let him touch
as if it were his own. I was forced
to let him do anything he wanted to me, and he did. I was beaten
, and caged
, like an animal
At night he let me watch the news
, watch my parents
cry and beg to let me out. He forced me into submission
, and forced everything around me to become what I hate
d. I was being shown my biggest fear
Was this some dream relating to my experiences using females
Was I realizing that I had been the guy torturing girls
in my own relationships?
Was I just having a nightmare
Will I ever know?
I guess I realized something tonight
. At least I have that.