Took a trip to the states this weekend, to clear my head.
It was good to get out of the city. Watching the world go by
in a car window, meeting new people, being able to spend a few days without worrying about job
, or girl
stresses was good. Very good.
I'm thinking about moving to Kitchener
for a while, to take some time to chill out. Jessica
and I aren't together anymore, and I don't want to live in Toronto
if I'm not living with her
. She's the reason I came here, and I don't want to stay here, alone. Maybe come September
, I might move back, but for now...
I need to figure out who I am, really. I'd like to go there for a while, get my own place (my own place!), and just work for a bit, try and remember what it is that I like to do. Geek out
a bit, DJ
a bit, read
a bit. Keep to myself for a bit.
It might be good for me. I'm not sure.
The hardest part about this breakup is the fact that I would still drop everything for her, in a heartbeat
. Even with the problems we've had, I'd do it all again for her, in a moment, if she asked.
The hard bit is that she won't
. She doesn't want this relationship.